I Think I'm Falling in Love With You

I'm in love..Hmm...I actually myself didn't expect that I will like and love it. It all started with hatreds. I don't know you, I don't understand you and I even hate you. There seem a lot of thing to be understand and I can't absorbed it just by that. But, time by time, as the day passes, I tried to get to know with you. Tak kenal maka tak cinta, & starting then, the roses started to bloom..Ha...



Ha...Psychological medicine posting. I hate psychiatry. I don't understand what are the lecturers were talking about. It's seem to be too alien for me. Yup, psychological medicine is unlike the other branches of medicine. It not about surgery, it's not about anatomy, it's not about an illnesses that you can see with your naked eyes but it's about being a human being whose having feeling and the thinking. Added with the social stigma...Huwa...So complicated...(I even don't understand what I'm writing about..Ngee...) The worst, the are a lot of definitions to be understands. It's seem to read thick law books or even worst. There are a lot of words, a lot of story and history and a lot of criteria.

Then, one day I started to realized. Why should I complaining a lot. Just face it lah...Somehow I started to enjoy the posting. I love to talk to the patients especially patients with major depressive disorder and bipolar mood disorder. Trying to understand them in and out, physically and mentally and of coz talking and sharing problem is one of the treatment for their illnesses. Sometimes, what happen to them give reflection towards myself. What my patients facing, the stressors are just sometimes normal daily living things. But the way how the cope and facing the problem slightly different compare us the normal mentally health person. Actually, what I feel when talking with them can be described with words. There's something there inside my heart and give me kepuasan (although I can't help much..). May be I should considered psychiatric as one of specialties that I should look up for...